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Τρίτη, 21 Φεβρουαρίου 2017

Until we redress our karmic debts, we’re doomed to be stuck on this earth plane.

How do you free yourself from the trap of karma?

Do unto others as you would have them do unto you is the basic premise of karma.

Except karma takes into account not only what you’ve done in this life and are aware of, but also what you’re done in previous lifetimes and how that impacts the souls you are engaging with.

Karma is a subtle trap, because even if you do manage to reach a point where you have redressed your outstanding karma and are only putting out good into the world, the law of karma states that that good energy you’ve put out must also be returned to you.

Effectively this means that being good is not enough to release you from the trap of karma; what you need is another mechanism entirely.

How does karma get created?

There are only two ways of looking at the world and the souls that occupy this plane: first is that we are all one and the same soul, the second is that we are all separate beings.

When you look at the world from the point of view of us all being one soul and one being, it’s really easy to see how a lack of forgiveness held against one person is truly held against yourself. On the flipside, when you look at each of us as individual beings, you’re engaging the ego – because ego is THE THOUGHT that we are separate from each other/God.

When ego is engaged you experience any one of a range of emotions that either leaves you feeling superior or inferior to the other party: judgement, fear, guilt, frustration, impatience, jealousy, envy, competition, shame, humiliation, embarrassment, vulnerability, doubt, resistance, awe or admiration.

If you feel superior to the other party then everything’s hunky dory, because we’re always happy with an imbalance that sees us at the top of the heap.

However if you feel inferior in the moment, your default reaction is going to be to try and bring the person down so that you no longer feel inferior to them. While it would stand to reason that the solution would be to equal-to the person in question, most often we aim to make the other person feel inferior, because we only know ourselves as something when we see it contrast to something else. So, their inferiority makes you superior to them. This we can live with.

Karma & ego

If ego is the thought that we are separate, then ego is going to fight very hard for you to hang onto that thought and the concepts of superiority and inferiority. Anything else would be suicide.

So your ego ramps up the cycle of doubt and anger and fear and vulnerability – whatever emotions it needs to keep you trapped in a cycle of inequality and imbalance, tied to the concept that you are inferior, striving to push you to make yourself superior.

The joke though is that the only thing that is making you feel inferior to the person in front of you is the resistance from your ego and the thoughts and feelings ego triggers inside you. Without ego you accept that we are all one being, one soul. If we’re all equal then there is no inferiority and no superiority of any one soul.

Your ego is the only part of this situation that is expressing the idea that you are inferior – mitigate your ego and the situation in question won’t cause you any pain at all. All the pain you feel in lack of forgiveness is the ego trying to protect itself – the ego’s fear.

Ego & forgiveness

In A Course in Miracles we are taught that all pain is caused by separation, which mimics the pain of the original separation from God.

Whether that separation is from an idea, a thought, a concept, a person or an experience, the true pain we’re feeling is the reminder that we are separate from God. The only way to free yourself from this pain is to forgive it and release it.

Each time you forgive you release the ego emotions affiliated to that event, and you release yourself from having to relive and resolve the issue on the karmic level. So the karmic events that would have to take place to correct the imbalance no longer need to occur.

Over time, as you forgive more and more souls, the power of your ego diminishes incrementally, enabling you to live from a place of peace, from your own soul. With each release you will feel more peaceful, calmer, more self-assured and secure.

Once you have let go the last of your karmic debts, you will be able to achieve release and finally ascend from this earth plane.

Visit for a free online visual Ho'oponopono forgiveness tool you can use to help you achieve a forgiveness release.

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Joanna Papagianni
As a relationship coach I often hear the question, “What does he/she want?”

Here are five possible answers to the question of what your partner, or the person you’re longing after, wants.

When people ask this question, it’s usually with the hope that the answer is going to be something that they can create in themselves in order to make the other person fall in love with them.

You’re never going to be able to do that, and to be honest you don’t want to – just remember back to a time that someone was in love with you and you didn’t feel it. No one can force that emotion.

It sucks to have to accept that, I know, but the sooner you do, the sooner you will be free to find the love that you truly deserve.

1. To feel love and be in love

If you ask most people what they want in a relationship, they’ll tell you it’s to be LOVED by someone.

This actually isn’t true though; although most people don’t realize it.

What people actually want is to be in a relationship where they feel those loving and in love feelings towards someone else.

If love were all about the way that the other person feels about us, then stalkers wouldn’t get such a bad rap.

The truth is that you only welcome someone’s love when you feel something for him or her in return. Someone who presses his or her love onto you when you don’t want it is usually just creepy.

2. To belong

When you belong somewhere, with a group of people, you not only have a place where you fit in, but you have a place where your presence is missed.

Without you around physically and energetically, there is a you-shaped hole inside that person’s life, and there are holes that perfectly fit those people in your life.

3. To be wanted and needed

Yes mainstream media and pop psychology love to tell us that needing something is a bad thing, but how bad can it really be if it’s a characteristic that occurs so naturally and easily in so many of us?

When you go on any personal development, growth and evolution journey, one of the things that you will discover is that every aspect we think of as negative, like attachment, anger, being needed, all have positive benefits for us too.

If you’ve ever felt secondary and unnecessary in a situation, like a third wheel, you’ll know one of the obvious benefits of feeling needed – not feeling unwanted.

People want to be welcomed warmly, they want to know that you can’t live without them and they want to know that your world will be emptier without them.

You only have to look inside yourself briefly to prove it: to know that you want all of those things for yourself as well.

4. To feel comfortable and at home

When you feel comfortable and at home around someone, you don’t have to pretend or put on airs and graces.

So it stands to reason that when you feel at home and comfortable around someone you’ll want to spend time with him or her.

Luckily, energy healing and coaching can actually help you change your energy in this regard, and help you drop the mirrors that are causing energetic tension between the two of you.

Once you’ve dropped the mirrors though, you may actually find that you no longer want to be in the relationship – even if all of a sudden the other party does.

5. To share

Someone to tell it to is one of the fundamental needs of all human beings.
- Miles Franklin

Just think about it for a minute… when you care for someone, what you really want to do is spend time with them, share space with them, talk to them and validate the experiences of your life and world by having this person share them with you and reflect them back to you.

If you’re in a relationship where you want the focus to be solely placed onto you, you’re missing the point of why the other person is here: they also have a story to tell and a life to share.

So when last did you listen?

Ask how was your day?

How much do you really know about what is going on in your partner’s world?

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Is staying in love simply impossible?

Love is a slow build up, not an instant thing. Here are eight reasons why people can’t seem to stay in love anymore.

1. There’s Too Much Emphasis On Instant Gratification.

We live in an age of high speed everything: high speed internet, high speed 3G phone service. We expect everything to happen for us immediately, and that’s a problem for love. You can’t go on three dates and expect to be ready to live with each other.

2. Drugs And Alcohol Are Used Too Heavily.

This is hardly a universal trait among people who have a hard time being in love. It’s not that roasting a bowl after work or having a beer with some friends on the weekend is really all that bad for you and your love life, but it’s when it becomes addiction that it’s problematic. In many cases, drug and alcohol use are on the decline, but it’s still love’s worst enemy in a lot of ways.

3. Sleeping Around Is On The Rise.

I’d argue that there’s nothing inherently wrong about sleeping around when you’re not in a steady relationship, aside from the possibility that diseases spread. Use protection. Go at your own pace. You don’t owe anyone anything.

But in the same way that drugs damage your potential for love when you self-medicate, sex can be a kind of medication, too. If you’re fine with sex that isn’t particularly special, that’s fine. But if you’re using it to fill a void in your life, it may hinder your ability to love fully in the future.

4. People Are Into Themselves More Now Than Ever.

More and more, we think about our needs before the needs of anyone else. It’s getting to the point of insanity. No one wants to take care of anything that doesn’t personally pertain to them. This constant self-interest makes it hard to let love into your life.

5. Dating Happens Because It’s What You Think You’re Supposed To Do.

Everything that I’ve talked about so far pertains to everyone, but this one is a bit more common among the young I’ve found. We feel like we have to date just because that’s what you do. But that’s really not the case. It’s important to be able to love yourself before you fall in love with someone else. Take time to get to know you.

6. It’s Harder To Make Compromises.

From the moment we’re born, we’re told that we have to go to college, get these jobs, have a career, and all of this other ambitious stuff. We’re also told to have a family, to have kids, to have that stupid house in the suburbs. The emphasis on success takes away from finding a partner and starting a family.

It’s important to remember to compromise with each other. It doesn’t mean giving up everything, it just means making it work.

7. Being In Love Is A Fairytale To Some.

Love is different from person to person. Each relationship is unlike the last. It’s important to let it take the form it’s going to take, not force narratives of the fairytale love.

8. We Just Aren’t That Great At Loving.

I’ve seen it. I’ve felt it. I’ve experienced it in myself. We’re not that great at relationships and being in love. There’s no reason to be ashamed.

It’s important that we grow as people. It’s important to remember that being in love is like being a part of the best team you could dream of. It’s important to remember how to talk to each other. Remember, we’re all people and we all want to be treated a certain way. So, embody that.

This article was originally published at Higher Perspective
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If you’re dating because you truly want to find love with a great guy you can build a future with, you probably end up disappointed a lot of the time. Finding someone that you click with and who wants the same thing in life as you do might seem like a simple enough request, but it often feels almost possible to fulfill. Because of this, dating can feel downright depressing AF and borders on soul-destroying. Here’s why:

1. You Date With Complete Honesty But Are Often Blindsided By Bullshit.

You know what you want — you want love, and yet you’ve been met with countless assholes who only tell you what you want to hear or lie about who they are just to get what they want from you. It’s hard to know what you can trust anymore because you’re so used to being led on and taken advantage of by losers.

2. When You Make A Kind Gesture, It’s Sometimes Seen As Needy Or Clingy.

Whenever you date anyone, you probably do it honestly, thoughtfully and with good intentions, just as anyone should. If you text a guy first, get him a random and spontaneous (not to mention thoughtful) gift or show your affection for him, it sucks when he gets turned off or sees you as clingy or needy. WTF?

3. You Believe You Can Trust Guys, But More And More They Prove You Wrong.

You try and trust every new guy you encounter and give him the benefit of the doubt, but it’s just so damn hard when history has shown you that many guys are only out for themselves and couldn’t give less of a shit about your feelings at all. Just once, you’d like to meet someone whose loyalty and honesty is equal to your own. It’s not too much to ask, and yet, it can feel like it totally is these days.

4. Finding A Guy Who Doesn’t Just Want A Hook-Up Feels Insanely Difficult.

It really does feel like more and more guys these days are opting for low-key, casual sexual relationships that require little to no effort as opposed to having lasting love with one person. You know that sex is only a small part of the equation and there are other amazing benefits to having a real relationship, and yet it seems like so few guys feel the same way anymore.

5. Your Real Intentions Scare A Lot Of Guys Off.

A lot of the time, you don’t even get the chance to see what could potentially develop because your honesty about our intentions can scare guys off before you even get a chance. Why the hell does it seem like so many guys scared of commitment these days? When you actually tell a guy you’re looking for a real and meaningful relationship, many of them see it as instant pressure and run away almost immediately. You’re just being straight up. Ugh.

6. If You Give A Guy Girlfriend Perks, He Sometimes Takes Complete Advantage Of It And Then Goes MIA.

When you’re dating someone and you truly like them, which is always (otherwise, why would we date them?), you tend to behave like you would in any relationship. You treat your partner with respect, generosity and thoughtfulness… only to sometimes be completely unappreciated for your efforts and tossed aside for the next flavor of the month. The best part is, a lot of the time, you don’t even get an explanation as to why he went rogue. It’s rude AF.

7. You’re Often Left With Unanswered Questions From Being Ghosted.

Do you know how exhausting it is when we have to question ourselves over and over again because yet another guy didn’t have the decency to give you a real and concrete ending to the relationship you were building? It’s absolutely infuriating, and yet it’s something you  just have to suck up and deal with because it seems like it’s not going to end anytime soon.

8. You’ve Heard Every Excuse In The Book And You’re Sick Of The Nonsense.

From “I’m just not ready” to “I’m not looking for anything serious” and “I’m just too busy for a relationship,” you’ve probably heard literally every excuse as to why a guy can’t offer you what you’re truly looking for. It’s a painful reality, but you keep trying to find love despite it.

9. You Probably Feel Deflated A Lot.

Maybe you give up, take breaks and dive back in routinely, and the cycle is seriously so exhausting that it’s natural to find yourself wondering why the hell you even keep putting yourself out there and making the effort to begin with.

10. More Than Likely, You Literally Don’t Understand How You Can Still Be Single.

How can it be this hard for good women to find love? How can so many amazing women with so much to offer get caught up in this bullshit we call modern dating? Why does it feel like so many guys these days so put off by relationships in favor of meaningless sex? It’s a cycle of questions that constantly spin through your mind, but there are no real answers.
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New and strange footage from NASA’s live feed of the International Space Station appears to show six large objects scurrying by. This is not the first time this sight has been seen, but this instance contains unique characteristics.

As you can see in the live video below, relayed by the American space agency, the objects flying by move from the right of the screen towards the left. Unlike previous instances where only 1 object comes into frame, this video contains six UFO’s that are resulting in n outcry for explanation from viewers.

The phenomenon was originally spotted by a UFO enthusiast at Streetcap1 who shared the clip with the popular YouTube channel called SecureTeam10. They are a group of UFO experts who track down clips, investigate footage and put their findings out to an eager audience online.

Referring to the ISS UFO clip below, Tyler from SecureTeam said: “He has discovered what some are calling a fleet of unidentified flying objects moving in the distance behind the International Space Station.”

“We have about six UFOs passing behind, and judging from the distance, I would guess that the size of these objects, whatever they are, would be fairly large.”

“Much larger than Nasa’s typical excuse of ice particles, we must be looking at icebergs.”

Tyler goes on to explain that NASA suspiciously cut the live feed and replaced it with a feed from another ISS camera showing the inside of a briefing room.

Not The First Time

There have been a number of instances where NASA has cut a live feed as unexplained objects enter the cameras field of view.

Back in January of 2015, NASA cut the feed after video showed a small grey object slowly rising and then disappearing. There is no saying whether it’s an extraterrestrial space craft or not, but it’s unidentified and curious that NASA would cut the feed right at this time.

Again on July 9th 2016 another video from the International Space Station feed shows an object entering earth’s atmosphere and moments later the feed is cut. Once again,  we cannot say this is a UFO or whether it’s manned, but there is an unidentified object and yet again NASA cut the feed.

Most explanations from NASA lean towards these objects being a meteor, space debris, or ice but once again we see secrecy and highly coincidental timing.

Take a look at the video below. Do you think it is a real UFO? Or is there some other explanation?

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Moby (Richard Melville Hall), is an American DJ, singer, songwriter, musician, photographer and animal rights activist. He is well known for his electronic music, veganism, and support of animal rights.

Recently on his website he released a series of ambient recording designed to help people feel a great calmness. This is what he said on his website;

”Over the last couple of years i’ve been making really really really quiet music to listen to when i do yoga or sleep or meditate or panic. i ended up with 4 hours of music and have decided to give it away.

You can download it for free below or stream it on spotify, soundcloud, apple music, deezer, youtube & tidal. It’s really quiet: no drums, no vocals, just very slow calm pretty chords and sounds and things for sleeping and yoga and etc. and feel free to share it or give it away or whatever, it’s not protected or anything, or at least it shouldn’t be.

thanks, moby”

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Δευτέρα, 20 Φεβρουαρίου 2017

One of the biggest and most common questions someone in a relationship asks themselves is if they are with the right person. While there are some signs that can help you figure that out, another question you should be asking yourself is if you’re getting what you deserve out of your relationship. It can be hard to let go when that person is the only thing you’ve known for a long time. But it’s important to know your worth and know when someone else isn’t seeing it. These are 12 signs that you might be settling for less than you deserve.

1. You Make Excuses For Their Actions And End Up Blaming Others.

When they do something that you or others find unsettling, are you making up an excuse for them? Or maybe you’re blaming yourself or others for their actions? If your partner does something that you find less than acceptable, you should be able to talk things out. Covering up for them solves nothing.

2. They Don’t Have Aspirations.

They don’t really plan for their own future let alone one including you. They are content not having aspirations and don’t understand when you want to go out and do things in the world. In holding themselves back, they end up holding you back and keep you from realizing your potential.

3. You Feel You Are Never A Priority.

If they have nothing else going on, then maybe they’ll think about you. They’ll come for you when they have the time or feel like it. Not because you are important in their life. The harsh reality is that you are filler for their time.

4. You Can Rarely Count On Them To Be There For You.

No matter what you’re doing or where you are, if they call or text, you will answer and you are ready to be with them. However, if you need them, you’ll be damned if they actually respond or have the time for you. They might even ask if it can wait. Of course people are busy and someone can’t always be free, but when it counts, is your partner there for you?

5. You Would Rather Not Talk To Them.

Maybe you’re not waiting for them. Maybe you’re hoping you DON’T hear from them. When you get a text from them, you aren’t excited and you hardly look forward to seeing them. You’re just coasting through your relationship almost waiting for it to fizzle out, but you think this is as good as it’s going to get.

6. You’re Always Waiting On Them.

You’re waiting for them to call or text or ask to hang out. You’re waiting for them to stop their bad habits or tell you they love you. You’re waiting for them to follow through on their promises or start taking care of you better. You’re waiting for the day you finally find the person you first fell for.

7. Small Annoyances Turn Into Fights.

The little things that you once could overlook or that didn’t even bother you are suddenly the root of your fights — and you fight often. You are often irritable with them, almost too often. You aren’t sure if you are really angry or if you’re just looking for some form of passion and emotion, so you lash out over anything.

8. You’re Staying Because You Don’t Want To Be Alone.

When you think about why you stay, you think, “Well…it’s better than being alone.” You are so afraid of what being on your own might hold for you so you stay somewhere you are unhappy and with someone who is no longer the stars in your sky. Being alone is a dirty thought, even though being alone could be the thing that saves you.

9. You Wish You Were More Like Other Couples.

When you look at other couples, you think to yourself, “I wish I had what they had.” You are waiting for things to get better, but they aren’t and you become more and more envious of what other people have. You might even sometimes wish you were on your own because that would be better than longing for your partner to be an active part of your relationship.

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Youth is a time of tremendous energy and spontaneous actions. It’s a period when time goes so slowly, and it seems that everything is still ahead and life will be eternal. We often tell ourselves, ’I’m still young. I still have time to travel, learn foreign languages, find someone special…’ But we often find that time passes more quickly than we think. So don’t waste your time dreaming about your life — live your dreams!

Today, we here share a list of great things that you should try today without waiting for ’the right time.’

1. Watch Sunrise In An Unusual Place

Whether it’s the Troll’s Tongue in Norway, a small island in the ocean, or the roof of a high-rise building in your native city, any place will work. Just leave your bed with the gentle rays of morning sun, and don’t forget to make a wish as you watch a new day begin.

2. Take A Trip

They say that people who spend money on travel rather than clothes and useless things are much happier. Sometimes even a small trip to a neighboring city can open a new world to you, let alone visiting foreign countries!

3. Find Time For Your Younger Brother Or Sister

Older brothers and sisters always have a lot of things to do, but they will never regret the time spent with their younger siblings. They grow up very quickly, and you may find that you have lots in common.

4. Don’t Dream About Kitesurfing! Do It!

Do you like playing the violin or dancing hip-hop? Or maybe you have read everything there is to know about skateboarding or kitesurfing? If so, it’s definitely time to move from theory to practice!

5. Conquer Your Fears

Fears of the dark, heights, or water are actually a very common thing. But it is better to challenge your phobias and become stronger and free.

6. Don’t Pass By Those Who Need Your Help

Perhaps you can do a little magic for someone who really needs it. You can start with something small at first, like donating some food to your local animal shelter.

7. Bring Your Most Incredible Idea Into Reality

You can definitely do it! Even taking the first step towards your dream is a small victory.

8. Find Time For Studying

Exams always come sooner than you think! Don’t make excuses to delay your preparation. Take every possibility to revise the material.

9. Compete To Achieve More

The spirit of competition will help you achieve better results in any area, whether it be cooking, architecture, design, cinema, or archaeology. Just keep working hard!

10. Take Every Opportunity To Learn From A Master

Of course, trial and error is sometimes the only way to gain experience. But you can significantly reduce your mistakes if you find a wise teacher.

11. Go To Carnival With Your Friends

Unforgettable impressions, vivid emotions, and the pulsating energy of life. This event is not to be missed!

12. Realize Your Childhood Dream

Childhood dreams have no boundaries! We imagine ourselves in a variety of scenarios and want to become astronauts or firefighters. So what’s stopping us from fulfilling our dreams?

13. Dance In The Puddles In An Unknown City!

Enjoy your youth and the freedom that comes with it. Look to the sky and rejoice at the sun, wind, or rain. Be happy no matter what!

14. Find The Courage To Be Yourself

When it comes to creativity, no fear and no obstacle should stop you from doing what you want to do! Just let yourself go and be yourself!

15. Fight For Your Love!

Every relationship has its ups and downs. The tough times in your life can either strengthen or weaken your relationship. It’s your individual choice which will make the difference.

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What It’s Like To Have ‘High-Functioning’ Anxiety

High-functioning anxiety looks like…

Achievement. Busyness. Perfectionism.

When it sneaks out, it transforms into nervous habits. Nail biting. Foot tapping. Running my fingers through my hair.

If you look close enough, you can see it in answered text messages. Flakiness. Nervous laughter. The panic that flashes through my eyes when a plan changes. When anything changes.

High-functioning anxiety feels like…

A snake slithering up my back, clamping its jaws shut where my shoulders meet my neck. Punch-in-the-gut stomach aches, like my body is confusing answering an email with being attacked by a lion.

High-functioning anxiety sounds like…

You’re not good enough. You’re a bad friend. You’re not good at your job. You’re wasting time. You’re a waste of time. Your boyfriend doesn’t love you. You’re so needy. What are you doing with yourself? Why would you say that? What if they hate it? Why can’t you have your shit together? You’re going to get anxious and because you’re going to get anxious, you’re going to mess everything up. You’re a fraud. Just good at faking it. You’re letting everybody down. No one here likes you.

All the while, it appears perfectly calm.

It’s always looking for the next outlet, something to channel the never-ending energy. Writing. Running. List-making. Mindless tasks (whatever keeps you busy). Doing jumping jacks in the kitchen. Dancing in the living room, pretending it’s for fun, when really it’s a choreographed routine of desperation, trying to tire out the thoughts stuck in your head. 

It’s silent anxiety attacks, hidden by smiles.

It’s always being busy but also always avoiding, so important things don’t get done. It’s letting things pile up rather than admitting you’re overwhelmed or in need of help.

It’s that sharp pang of saying the wrong thing, the one that starts the cycles of thoughts. Because you said too much, and nobody cares, and it makes you never want to speak up again.

It’s going back and forth between everyone else has it together but you, and so many people have it tougher than you.

Get your act together.

Suck it up.

You’re not OK, you’re messing everything up.

You’re totally OK, stop being such a baby.

It’s waking up in the middle of the night sobbing because the worst-case-scenario that just went through your head at high speed seems so real, so vivid, that even when it’s proven to be untrue, it takes hours for your heart to slow down, to feel calm again.

Because how “OK” are you when a day without a plan is enough to make you crumble? When empty spaces make you spiral at the very anticipation of being alone with your thoughts? When you need to make a list to get through a Sunday: watch a show, clean your kitchen, exercise, answer five emails, read 10 pages, watch a show… ?

It’s feeling unqualified to write this piece because I’m getting by. It’s when you’re social enough to get invited to things, but so often find yourself standing in a room where it feels like no one knows you. It’s being good at conversation and bad at making close friends because you only show up when you feel “well” enough. Only text back when you feel ready. Because you’re afraid they’d hate you if they really knew you. That the energy would overwhelm them, and you’d lose them.

So you learn to reign it in. Channel it. Even though sometimes you do everything right (exercise, sleep, one TV show, five emails, 10 pages…) and you’re still left with racing thoughts, the panic. The not good enoughs.

When will it be enough?

Having anxiety means constantly managing motion that can be productive or self-destructive, depending on how much sleep you got. Depending on the day. Depending on the Earth’s alignment with Mars. Depending on…

It’s when “living with it” means learning how to sit with it. Practicing staying in bed a little longer. Challenging the mean, unrelenting voices that say you’re only worth what you produced that day.

It means learning how to say, “I need help.” Trying to take care of yourself without the guilt. It means every once in a while, confiding in a friend. It means sometimes showing up even when you’re scared.

It’s when answering a text impulsively and thoughtlessly is an act of bravery.

It’s fighting against your own need to constantly prove your right to exist in this world.

It’s learning how to validate your own feelings. That even though you don’t feel like you’re enough, and you’ll never be enough, it’s knowing you’re at least anxious enough to benefit from help. That admitting you need it doesn’t confirm voices’ lies. That taking a break doesn’t mean you’re a failure.

It’s finding your own humanity in the anxiety, in your weaknesses. It’s trying to let the energy inspire you, instead of bring you down. It’s forgiving yourself when it wins.

It’s a way to live, with this constant companion. Your bullying twin. Collapsible luggage you can bury away at a moment’s notice. Shove it under the bed. Pretend it’s not there until you can’t fit anymore. Until you can no longer ignore it. Until you have to face it.

A first good step is staring at it straight on and calling it by its name.

High anxiety can be a natural consequence of a busy lifestyle, but its existence is akin to the chicken and the egg. Which came first, the anxiety or the busyness? Am I always moving because I’m anxious or am I anxious because I’m always moving?

Either way, it’s not a noble way to suffer. It’s not a “better” way to be anxious. Just because you’re “functioning” doesn’t always mean you’re happy. And just because you’re functioning doesn’t mean you shouldn’t slow down, breathe and take one damn second to be happy the way things are.

In this very moment.

This quiet, short moment.

To remember the peace you found in that second of silence, until the electricity starts again, and you’re forced to move.

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“I can’t tell you exactly how it will end, but I can tell you this when it begins, it will feel like rain and when it ends it’ll feel like fire. And the truth is we’re all beautifully mad enough to believe that maybe love was meant to save us from ourselves.” -R.M. Drake.

I think we’re all afraid of showing someone the worst sides to ourselves. We’re afraid of rejection, we’re afraid of vulnerability.

But if you let me, I’ll love you at your worst.

I’ll love when you don’t like the reflection you see looking back at you.

I’ll love you for the things you are insecure about.

I’ll love you through every fight.

I’ll love you through every breakdown.

I’ll love you through every tear, you hate shedding.

I’ll love you through every anxiety attack.

I’ll love you when you become that person, you don’t recognize drunk.

I’ll love you when you push me away.

I’ll love you when you don’t understand.

I promise to love you at your worst. And with that it’ll heighten everything that is it’s best.

Because even at your worst, you’re beautiful.

Even those moments you hate yourself, I promise I won’t.

I’ll love you through the anger.

I’ll love you through the confusion.

I’ll love you for the past and accept it, as you haven’t yourself.

And even more for the future that may be uncertain.

I love you for the things you are. I love you too for the things you aren’t.

And if you let me I’ll love this way forever.

I’ll love until our wrinkles age together and we envy our youth.

I’ll love you for every memory that is imprinted in my heart.

I’ll love you for your quirks.

I’ll love you for your flaws.

I’ll love you for it all, if you dare let me.

Because when I look at you I see perfection, despite the flaws that prevail.

Because when I look at you I see the person you inspire me to be.

Because when I look at you, I’m happy to be alive.

So I’ll love you through it all, even in those moments you don’t love yourself.

And if you let me, I’d like to love you like that forever.

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