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I want you to know that I forgive you.
I forgive you for everything you've done past and present. I forgive you for your wrongdoings. Time will pass and eventually you'll be forced to deal with it all. Someday it will all cave in and you'll be lost because the good people who tried to love you and support you were chased out.
I feel sorry for you. I'm sorry there is a piece of you that is so broken that you will never ACTUALLY know what love is. You'll see bits and pieces of it, maybe feel it here and there, but you'll never know heart filling, mind blowing, can't stop smiling just at the thought and never want to live a day without them love.
I'll be fine. In time I will realize that I made the right call. And I'll even be thankful to you for making it easy, for giving me what I needed to walk away before it got even deeper. By letting you go, I'm setting myself free and opening my heart to the opportunity to love again, and to be loved in a way I deserve to be loved, to be someone's priority, to be someone's "everything", to have all I have to give returned and never be made to feel like I'm less than what I know I am.
I'm broken right now, but I'll mend. I always do. I don't doubt I meant something to you, but that only went so far and eventually stopped. I know more than you know I do. I know you've lied to me on several occasions.
I don't blame you. You're broken. I just wish you'd have been less of a coward and let me go before you did any real damage, before it got to a point I asked you to promise it would never reach. If you truly loved me, you would have done me that service.
But it's ok. You're broken. I also don't blame me. I gave you the chance to do right, and I loved you even knowing what you're capable of. Hopefully someday you'll figure it all out. Hopefully it won't be too late and you won't destroy anyone else along the way.
In the meantime, I forgive you. I'm sorry your life has made you what you are and I'm sorry you've made your life what it is. I tried. I tried hard. But I couldn't do it alone. Hopefully you're happy wherever you are right now. I made it to your list, and while I always knew that I would, my only hope is that I made it a little higher than some of the others.
I love you. Make no mistake about that. But I also love me, and now it's time for me to give that some extra attention. I thank you for the fun we had, the laughs, the trips, all of it. I don't regret it. Everyone comes into our lives for a reason. Some of them are to teach us lessons.
Im walking away from this having learned many. I wish you well. I really do. I'll be here for you, even though you don't need that because you don't lean on anyone. But if you find yourself at any time with a need for a shoulder,
I'll be here.