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“I Feel Empty”: 3 Reasons Why Emptiness is Haunting You

LW

Originally published on lonerwolf.com

Your hectic day has finally lulled to a stop.

There’s nothing left to do. There’s nothing more to say. Now you have time to relax. But instead, the silence descends upon you with oppressive force. You feel suffocated underneath the weight of this momentary, but seemingly eternal, nothingness.

Suddenly that old feeling returns … the feeling of emptiness, of desolation. Your insides ache under the gnawing pressure of this inner vacuum. How can the feeling of nothingness be so terribly painful?

As the feeling intensifies, so does your desire to seek relief. No matter what it takes, you just have to suppress this emptiness a little longer. It seems too hard, too endless to bear such hollowness. So you reach for a cigarette, your phone, the fridge, the bottle, the remote control, or the next sexual conquest, all in an attempt to escape your old, dark friend: emptiness.

What is Emptiness?

Emotionally, emptiness is a feeling of inner desolation: a complete absence of joy, hope, or satisfaction. When a person experiences emptiness, they are plunged into an inner abyss which often results in addictive and escapist behavior. Feelings connected with emptiness often include despair, depression, and loneliness.

8 Signs You’re Experiencing Emptiness

Signs to look out for include:

  • Fear of being left alone
  • Lack of meaning and purpose
  • Feeling empty/hollow inside
  • Absence of true happiness or fulfillment
  • Addictive behavior (to escape the emptiness)
  • Emotional numbness 
  • Inability to slow down/workaholism (as a form of escape)
  • Chronic boredom

Not everyone will share all of these signs, but if you identify with more than half, you are probably struggling with emptiness.

3 Reasons Why Emptiness is Haunting You

As a person who has struggled (and still at times struggles with) emptiness, I can tell you that depression is often a symptom, not a cause, of emptiness.

When looking online and listening to others explain emptiness, it is often linked to various mental illnesses such as BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder), Schizophrenia, alcohol and drug addiction, anxiety disorders, and of course depression. But to me, these labels are distracting and often times shallow, meaningless, and even harmful because they don’t go to the root cause of what causes emptiness.

Don’t get me wrong, while emptiness is sometimes caused by neurological chemical imbalances, I dare to say that for most people, it goes much deeper than that.

So what are the origins of emptiness? Why does this inner desolation haunt you? I have often explored this topic in-depth privately because it is one of the major issues I have (and still) struggle with.

When it comes to exploring what is really causing your emptiness, be careful. I’ve run into so many justifications which sound true, but in reality are band-aid symptoms of much deeper issues. Here are some of those false reasons I’m talking about:

  • I don’t have a partner.
  • I don’t have enough money.
  • I’m not successful enough.
  • My partner doesn’t love me anymore.
  • I have no close friends.
  • My husband/wife is boring.
  • I don’t have enough sex.
  • I’m not in the right job.

When you dig deep enough, going to the core of each of these issues, you will find some common themes.

Here is what I’ve found lies at the root of emptiness:

1. Soul Loss

Soul loss means a disconnection from your soul. All of us have experienced soul loss to some extent. Soul loss is caused, and reinforced, by trauma, abuse, childhood conditioning, materialism, and ego-centered living. Soul loss manifests as the eternal sense that something is “missing” from our lives. In other words, it is disguised as the perpetual “search for happiness” which often results in misguided, futile, and externally-focused pursuits. Our obsession with money, fame, power, beauty, and the “perfect” relationship are all attempts to get back that which we have lost: contact with our soul.

Soul loss is a modern epidemic of epic proportions. It’s symptoms manifest as low self-esteem, suicidal depression, mental illnesses, physical illnesses, rage, grief, and in extreme circumstances, acts of violence, cruelty, and depravity.

If you want a more detailed examination of soul loss, check out the article “21 Signs You’re Experiencing Soul Loss.”

2. Lack of meaning and purpose

When you have lost touch with your soul, you will inevitably lose touch with your life purpose. What are you destined to create or do? What does your heart crave to express? How can you experience self-fulfillment? When you experience soul loss … who the hell knows!

We are all brainwashed and conditioned to act in certain ways. Since childhood, we are pressured to conform and fit into nice little boxes by our parents, teachers, and society at large. When we become adults, it’s the same story, except now we mistakenly believe that we are the ones choosing to study that accounting degree, get married young, get a mortgage, rack up huge student debt, and live a socially “acceptable” life.

Because few of us were told to look inwards, we live most of our lives externally. We listen to what everyone tells us about who we should be and ignore who we really are. We try to fix our inner wounds by using external distractions. We lock away anything uncomfortable, confronting, or “deep and meaningful” and prefer the comfortable and commonplace instead.

Why is it that people who experience breakups, job loss, death, and illnesses suffer so greatly? Yes, loss of any kind is painful. But what is more painful is the feeling of emptiness left behind. The creeping sensation that one’s life is not being lived to the fullest, and one’s unique purpose is not being accomplished .. now that is fucking scary.

If emptiness is becoming an increasing problem for you, it could signify that you are starting to become more conscious. You’re starting to reach breaking point. Your soul, locked away, is sick and tired of being ignored. It is trying to get your attention. Emptiness is the messenger. And although it may seem like a horrible thing to experience, it is actually a blessing in disguise my friend. (More on that soon.)

3. Suppressed and Repressed Emotions

So what happens if you’re living your life purpose? You’re regularly making contact with your soul? You’re devoted to living a path of heart … but that emptiness is still haunting you? This has been my problem for quite a while. And recently I hit a “Eureka!” moment thanks to some heart-to-heart conversations with my partner, Sol.

If emptiness is a constant companion with you, even on your spiritual path, it could be because you are suppressing and repressing emotion.

What is suppression and repression (and what’s the difference)? Suppression is consciously shutting away your emotions. Repression is unconsciously shutting away your emotions (i.e. you have no conscious awareness that you’re doing it). If you grew up in an environment that demanded you to be stoic and punished any form of strong emotional expression, you probably struggle with this issue.

The problem with suppressing and repressing emotions is that over time, they begin to build and stagnate within you. The more your emotions are dammed up inside, the more disconnected you feel from yourself. The more disconnected you feel, the more emptiness you feel.

In other words, you stop feeling your emotions. Life becomes dull and bland. Where you would otherwise feel joy, you feel mild enjoyment. Where you would otherwise feel anger, you feel mild annoyance. Where you would otherwise feel sadness, you feel mild listlessness.

Shutting out your “negative” emotions not only keeps them at bay, but through time it keeps all of your emotions at bay, positive ones included.

If you want to read more about this issue, I recommend checking out my article on emotional numbness.

“I Feel Empty”: 3 Ways to Feel Better

I feel empty when I’m not permitting myself to experience my emotions – both good and bad. But the cause for your emptiness might be different. Take a few moments to reflect on the causes of emptiness above. Ask yourself, “Why do I feel empty?” and examine each one of the points, seeing which one you resonate with the most. Keep in mind that it’s possible to feel empty due to all three reasons.

Now you might be wondering “Yeah, OK, I feel empty … but what’s the solution?”

Here are some valuable suggestions:

1. Establish your own spiritual practice

Connecting with your soul is not a novel, wishy-washy, one-off experience. It is a serious practice. It is a daily practice that one should commit to for life. You need to make an effort every day to introspect and turn inwards in order to reap the most benefits. And when I mention the benefits, I mean everything ranging from the small and subtle, to the paradigm-shifting-mind-blowing-mystical-experiences.

This website is full of suggestions on how to connect with your soul, but here is a great place to start

I recommend experimenting with various practices that you feel comfortable with at first. This might range from mainstream spiritual practices to more esoteric methods. The main point is that you need to explore what “soul” feels like. If you are in desperate need of this contact, I recommend finding a local (or international) shaman who can guide you on a spirit quest through the use of plant medicine. Plants such as psilocybin mushrooms, peyote, san pedro, and ayahuasca provide sacred gateways into the realm of soul and spirit.

2. Seek relentlessly for self-fulfillment

Start focusing on what will emotionally, mentally, and spiritually fulfill you. This will require you to look inwards and to possibly ignore everything that everyone has ever told you about who you “should” be.

Self-fulfillment is 100% personal and up to you to discover. No one can hand it to you on a silver platter. You have to explore what sets your soul on fire and makes your heart sing. YOU have to take the steps, set the goals, and put in the effort because if you don’t, you will wind up feeling empty and unfulfilled.

Remember, your destiny is in your hands. Once you start taking a proactive approach to your life, you will likely feel much better. Learning how to embrace your true self is one important place to start.

3. Allow and embrace your emotions

Feeling our emotions and actively embracing them flies directly in the face of everything we’ve been taught growing up. In particular, emotions like anger and sadness are shunned and largely feared because of their ferocious power. Such emotions are usually buried and expressed through sports, alcohol binges, workaholism, or relationship conflicts.

One powerful and healthy way of letting your emotions out is through catharsis. Catharsis, when done in a safe and private environment, is immensely liberating. Different forms of catharsis include intense exercise, screaming, dancing, laughing, and crying. I personally enjoy crying and punching catharsis because I struggle with repressed grief and rage.

Other passive forms of catharsis include art therapy and journaling. In my book “Awakened Empath,” I also explore a technique called SOAR which helps you to experience and regulate intense emotions. 

About the author
Aletheia Luna is an influential spiritual writer whose work has changed the lives of thousands of people worldwide. After escaping the religious sect she was raised in, Luna experienced a profound existential crisis that led to her spiritual awakening. As a mystic and spiritual mentor, Luna's mission is to help others become conscious of their entrapment and find joy, empowerment, and liberation in any circumstance. [Read More]

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